So, this isn't quite imposter syndrome but same time, kinda is? And I don't know why I feel this way considering I'm only posting my art for myself? So, I find myself doubting people are genuine when they say they love my art, and want to read my comic. And then I also feel like my art is inadequate as well, to a slightly negative degree. It's odd.
I'm thinking maybe I've just had too many negative things ever said to me in my life that I just am unsure as to why there's so many positive and wonderful people being nice to me? And wondering if it's genuine or not? My childhood was not encouraging of my writing and drawing interests, they were things I'd get punished for engaging in. Nobody is around these days to punish me over it though so it's such a weird thing to experience as an adult.
I'm not good with personal emotional stuff, clearly. Doubtful I'll ever accept this weak flesh sac I'm currently forced to reside in and its illogical, time consuming functions. It is my fault though, I decided to do this because I began to worry about the time I had left in this world and that I've not done what I've always wanted to do.
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Personal stuff over
In other news, I apologize for not posting anything other than the concept so far. I've been hard at work building up skill in areas of my art that I feel are weak, and of course making art friends all over again. Man, I forgot what it was like to be surrounded by like minded people, even if it's just in an online setting! I love my non-creative friends, don't get me wrong, they're equally fantastic people I love to hang with. But others who have their own worlds, characters, ideas and understand the struggle of being a creative? It's truly something else. They've made pieces that steal my eyeballs, make my dead and cold soul reach out to a musical piece they made for the first time since I was 12, and in general just having discussions and whatnot to help each other out.
I'll try to post here soon, though again, I can't promise a certain date of time before that happens.
pointlessfield
you might be a bit critical of yourself, while it's not bad at all since you want to improve,it's also best to keep it in check,you don't want to find yourself hating your own art.
other then that i don't think people have any reason to lie to you about your art,you're doing a great job and got yourself some really good character designs,even though it might be hard to "prove" that they really mean it, but at the same time,some people might leave some short comments or whatnot since they don't have too many things to say.
sucks to hear how people tried to put your skills down though,at the very least you've got the novelty in your life now,think of the good comments and praise you get as a starting push for later on,as sort of a warm welcoming gift
BlankFacedRobot
As they always say, the biggest critic of your art will be yourself. Thankfully, I've long since been over hating my art so I'm hopeful that won't return.
True, and thank you very much! Feelings aren't always a rational thing, and my view of people's honesty has been colored by the experiences I had with family, the first people you interact with before the rest of society. And because of how things were at home, I didn't click with my peers at all until I became an adult.
I will do better to quash this feeling whenever it makes itself known for this very reason. I love the responses, it just doesn't feel natural yet since I'm super unused to it. And unused to this feeling. Sure, I got praise at work in customer service and then when I was technically a co-leader for a few years in a competitive videogame, but that was easy to shrug off because I simply mirrored the social efforts of people who were popular. Art is far more personal, and not exactly something to copy or mirror from others.
As for comments people leave me, I appreciate anything anyone leaves, be it short or otherwise. So thank you for taking the time to leave this thoughtful response. I wish there were more words to express the amount of gratitude I have for you and those who've been so welcoming to me, thank you doesn't quite feel enough.