Still in hiatus for the moment folks.

Had to switch doctors, because my current ones took the Supreme Court ruling that they can absolutely force their religion and political beliefs down my throat legally, seriously.

My pain has unfortunately worsened, so I've not really been able to do as much with my projects as I'd hoped. I dunno when this will resolve but I do have an appointment soon, several hours away. I don't handle long drives too well these days with my disability having worsened since Covid, but I've no other options. This pain thing will require surgery as well, so please bear with me as I get this crap sorted.

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Didn't feel like making a new post; new doctor immediately helped me schedule treatment. Requires an abdominal surgery but YESSSSSSSSSS, FINALLY A DOCTOR THAT ACTUALLY LISTENS AND IS LIKE, DAWG, THAT AIN'T ACTUALLY NORMALLLL.

Right, onto other news: oneshot comic is underway. Will post the stuff for it here as I complete them, aside from the pages of course. I have environmental studies to do for it so pages will not be complete just yet.

Hello folks! Due to a sudden medical issue, I'm gonna take a hiatus and maybe post some unfinished things to either the forum post or just as a non-front page post if I can figure that out.

I've long needed a medical device to control a disorder, and my body has decided to Houdini it... somewhere. We don't know where just yet, we're hoping it is outside of my abdomen and into the world. I've yet to find it however, so the other more scary option is it is inside the shadow realm of my guts. Somewhere. Maybe. Dunno! In the event it is inside me, I've a recovery road ahead because they gotta go in and get it if it is still with me. Only lasts a few years, after all!

Just having a rough start to this year so far. Trying to get back in stride though! I should be fine, nothing too serious even if it is still floating in the void next to my pancreas or somethin. I'm just setting aside time just in case I need it, because abdominal surgeries kinda suck.

I did promise myself last year, that this would be the year I'd at least get some comic pages of SOMETHING out there. But when someone feeds into your doubts to not continue, and you've gained some new perspectives, ie having to give up on dreams for the sake of providing for someone you now care about and for... it's really difficult.

I didn't stop completely, I just retracted to doing things in secret again because this is important to me. It is the last thing I'm able to physically do. It's the last dream on my list of dreams I can complete. I didn't want to be yelled at or reminded to "work on my novel because you don't have the ability to do art".

Here's to continuing to try! That shitlord's voice is becoming quiet now, being surrounded by his skilled art students who were far skilled before he ever became their teacher has helped immensely. And making friends in the creative community has been just so rewarding in the friendships made and the experiences had. I'm truly thankful to them for helping me develop this far.

January of 2023

December 2023:

Lots of progress was made. I'm hoping to continue the trend onwards into 2024. So, see ya next year sometime folks!

Got a BUNCH of character and environment references to make as I get these old thumbnails revamped and turned into pages.

I KNOW, it's been one HOT minute since I posted anything!

Time legit escaped me while I had a wee bit of an art crisis. Questioned if I perhaps, should just invest all my time into self publishing my novels rather than pursuing what I really want, which is to turn said novels into comics instead. I am, after all, getting quite old to be chasing dreams anymore.

Some people's advise is well intentioned, not saying the advice I was given was bunk or anything. I just shouldn't have taken it so seriously, and feeling guilty when I instead worked on my art rather than digitizing my novel. I know my art ain't that great, I'm doing my best to improve I swear, but... I love getting lost in working on putting what I see in my brain outside of it. One more thing I've gotta heal from after spending my whole life not being supported or heard about what I want for my life.

ANYWAY, Happy Halloween! I don't have anything specific to contribute, I've been preoccupied this past week rather than focusing on my piece. Certain dear loved ones in crisis need me far more than an art piece I can always work on later does. Enjoy your sugary goodness, silly to sexy costumes, and horror movie binging day in preferred safety today!

My hiatus is concluded effective today, the 1st! I look forward to returning to my work in earnest, and I've considered digitizing my written novels to perhaps self publish before the webcomic of it is made. I'm not 100% certain about it, we shall see how I feel once things are written up into digital form. I'll also digitize the other elements not written into the novels as well at some point afterwards, for my sake and sanity.

Hope you've all been well, shall see you soon!

EDIT: My spelling certainly hasn't seen an improvement over this time away haha

Trying to aim higher for my art is... well, had to do some thinking. My physical problems that worsened rather sharply after Covid and has persisted since will not allow for a career in art, especially now that certain Supreme Court Justices have set a precident that I will ABSOLUTELY be discriminated against regardless of disability legal status. I mean, if the law won't protect able bodied folk for normal things, what chance in hell will it protect someone like me? Dose of reality sucks but I've been taking that medicine since I was born, ain't nothing new, ain't no surprise.

And try as I might to avoid it, I just really really want some isolation time with a select few folk for the remainder of the summer with a break from art. So I'm going to go on a temporary hiatus until the beginning of September. We shall see if I need one come the end of October or not for the winter holidays, since I tend to do the very same in terms of my social ability. Need more time to think. See you then!

TLDR; I'm doing great, just realized the world still ain't built for a good chunk of folks that also happen to include me, as per usual. And I really just need to have a think in my corner of solace over here for a wee bit, until the beginning of September. Will see ya'll then!

Been real busy guys, I'm super sorry!

I have this tendency to socially withdraw during the summer months and towards the Thanksgiving and Christmas holidays. I am trying my best not to this year but I've a feeling I'm gonna fail. It's already starting.

Still working on my art, I got caught up in IRL stuff. I'm also getting advice and whatnot to further improve my stuff so, it's been slow going ya'll. I am trying however.

So, I don't use labels let alone talk about my personal life much online, and I'm also sorry for double posting within the month. I am therefore, keeping this brief and vague: had a recent surprise happen in my life, one that I was never expecting and was happy living the rest of my life never finding, and the fire I had that died when I hit 21 has returned in full force.

With this change however, I gotta really step up my real life stuff, which may include doing my best to find some sort of job even though my exact situation for such job variability is... well, yea. Complicated.

The news on my passion project that I've now been working on for a good 13 years... I'm gonna do my best to try juggling it rather than setting it aside for another however many years until I have time to sit down with it. I'm also going to be working on my art so that I can end up doing commissions and earning a decent chunk of money doing that. That's whats up, that's the news.

I hope ya'll are doing well, I'll post this awesome piece when I'm finally done with it.

It's ALREADY MAY?!

Oh goodness me. Well, here, I'll share a WIP with ya'll:

This is before I had perspective broken down for me by a very skilled artist that does mentoring as his job, won't say his name because he is a very busy guy who took a wee bit of time out of his day to throw me a free tip. Since I'm doing SO many new things with this piece, it's taking a bit. Either way, here you go! Almost been one year since I returned to art.

A real surprise ain't it?

Aside from my door being violently gusted by some wind into my face, resulting in a black eye and swollen nose, I am very much alive.

My apologies for, as always, lack of posting. I've been distracted, busy, and otherwise just trying to make it to the end of the day lately, as most of us are doing. Still battling super perfectionist me, but I hope this next thing I post will be satisfactory to not just myself. Whenever and whatever that may be, since I've had a lot of improvement and growth since the end of January that it's just been difficult to post anything. See ya'll around!