No excuses on my end, life got in the way and I was kinda finding my footing again. My relationship ended week before December, I had an end of year surgical procedure, had some tendonitis issues in my shoulder and arm, and right now I'm recovering from a nasty sprained neck.

My previous relationship wasn't the greatest for me, turns out. I was expecting to climb the mountain that is life with them, and instead they had me chasing them down the mountain. And the moment, for the first ever time I stopped being perfect in the relationship, that was it for them. They loved me conditionally, which wasn't the way I loved them. So I broke it off. I deserve someone who will love all of me, not only in the moments when I can hide my depression and smile through my agonizing daily chronic pain struggles. And of course to just be there when I ask them to be.

Anyway, that is changing. I won't have a lot to post just yet, last year was just a mess as stated, but I'm actually working on stuff again as my neck and arm allows. I wish my body wasn't so weak, I legit sprained my neck from sleeping. Also a big reason I don't post a lot, is because my set up has me stretching my arms up and out in order to type and post, so I need to figure out a more comfortable, not as painful way to do so.